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Fears and getting over them

Posted: January 9, 2015 in AH

Overcoming fear.

What is the biggest fear of man? Death probably. It’s an unknown territory. We don’t know what happens after we die. Is there actually a hell for all sinners and a heaven for pure souls. I have read in books and often heard elders speak that if we do good deeds in our lifetime, chances are we will get an entry ticket to heaven. Even sinners who repent for their evil and perform good actions may be spared from hell in the end.

But that’s all vague. The truth is our actions determine our life, how we live and what kind of memories we are leaving behind. Death is the ultimate reality. We can’t choose the format for it. It will happen no matter what. And I am not in any depressed state of mind or gloomy while writing this.

I am just feeling calm. But its the thought of losing our loved ones and not able to do this and that part which scares me a lot.

I am also scared of darkness. When I enter a dark room, I always or most of the time feel that there is someone behind me. That someone is going to hit me.

Now I have to overcome that fear. Its too much 😃

First thing, why will someone want to hit me? Or even attack me? Ghosts and scary pictures or snapshots of horror movies in our mind haunt us. Torment us from childhood. So, to avoid them, either call out God’s name and definitely you will be saved. Believe in this. Or make yourself brave enough to look behind and sigh.

Besides these, I am not scared of anything major. Well there are other things also like what if I try out sky diving and something happens to me during fall..or am driving a car and something happens to me..see, actually there is a pattern I can observe. Afraid of getting physically hurt.

Solution – Just little more confidence and little more faith in the Almighty will do good 😃


On advice

Posted: January 9, 2015 in AH

Over the years I have given advice to many friends and family members. I am a people’s person and I am a good listener too. I think when my friends talk to me they value my opinion. My views matter in general not because I am their friend but I carry some sort of positivity 😃 looks like I am bragging myself but I know I am patient when it comes to listening and understanding others’ woes or doubts.

At times when life offers you choices between x and y and you are confused to choose from either of them, you look out for a third perspective. A ray of hope which can show some clarity and direction.

I have advised my friends in their troubles, paved the way towards the “z”. They have been happy and satisfied. But in the end they have to work out their problems themselves.

But when it comes to me, I hardly take advice from anyone. I may have too much of an ego! Like asking someone or disclosing the nature of my problem will undermine my personality. As much as I like helping people, sorting their issues I refrain from opening up my side of life. I go on and on about the new things I do, exciting things happening around me but if something is bothering me, I keep it to myself and don’t share with my best friend also. Strange isn’t it?

I am secretive when it comes to me. But if I feel something is going wrong with my friend, I dig deep into his/her mind through indirect questions just to know the truth behind it. It’s like some sort of a task to help them out. And until it is resolved I leave no stone unturned to keep my friend hopeful and happy.

I can definitely work in the role of a consultant. You know as an alternate career choice. 😃

Turning 30 :) Happy Birthday to me

Posted: September 13, 2014 in AH

It’s my birthday is tomorrow 🙂

And its weird as I won’t be 20 something now…anyway, I am growing older and its that time of the day when I really want to thank all my family n friends n especially God…for blessing me with this life and letting me have all wonderful experiences.

May I continue to bring a smile on the faces of my loved ones. May I do the right things in life. May I never hurt anyone.

Yes I wish for beautiful dresses and great food. But tomorrow, as I turn 30, I wish to be little more sensible and a little more cute 🙂

Thanks everyone who read my blog!

The Rain Effect

Posted: July 24, 2014 in AH, Fun, Slice of Life


What makes you happy? A good sleep, good food, lavish life, great job…money??? there can be unlimited answers to this. if someone asked me this question 5 months ago, my answer would be simple : Rains. Rains make me happy!

Things change. Picture this. This place never ceases to amaze me. For someone who has always lived in hot, dry state, this place is a sudden change. For the last 5 months, rains have been a part of my daily life on weekly basis.

earlier rains used to bring joy, happiness, smiles and going out and getting wet, dancing under the sky. rains meant a cup of hot tea, onion fries and vada pavs. rains compelled me to dial up my friends and make them envy with sounds of rain drops on the window panes. And at times, on those foggy window panes, you write words with your finger tips. Often I have made heart symbol and initials of mine and AH. I still do this 😃😃

rains have their own magic. how intoxicating that fragrance is when rain drops touch the earth and blend with the mud.

rains have their own beauty. Somewhere from far you hear a cuckoo singing. Somewhere very far a peacock must have danced. Somewhere an empty pond would have filled and quenched the thirst of a cow. Somewhere you hope a mazdoor or a laborer digging ground at construction site is kissed by rain.Rain drops would have taken his sweat away along with them.
You see beautiful umbrellas and colorful raincoats, kids splashing water and jumping on the rain, those little paper boats finding their way on sloppy roads. Despite all the chaos on roads, the traffic and potholes on roads and no electricity; rains are just beautiful.

rains have their own charm. yes I remember picking up my favorite book and reading it. or listening to my favorite songs taking me back to some happy memories. or wearing that special shawl because the air just cooler and you want some warmth.

and as I write this blog today, I am watching outside my window. I can see its raining. the sky is so grey as if someone has just painted heavy strokes of black on canvas and added a dash of white. whatever color comes up with this combination, that’s the grey shade am referring to! and yes from grey I remember seeing the trailer of this new movie 50 shades of grey. I don’t know the movie’s fate yet until it releases. the novel was not good so its adaptation on screen will be I don’t know..bad!

anyway, coming back to rains now. Rains now make me gloomy and suppress my excitement. it rains so much here that I crave for a sunny day. yes I crave for a sunny day.

it’s not that bad considering that in a few days this too shall pass but the sight of incessant rains at times is unbearable.

our moods reflect our personality. I know I crib a lot about many things and rains were definitely never one of those things until now. so I feel sad that my favorite season is becoming my least favorite season now.

but on the up side, too much rains means new boots, new jackets. that’s the bright side of an otherwise rainy day 😉

Pinch me..I am in USA 😃

Posted: March 24, 2014 in AH, Family, Slice of Life

Its still hard to believe that I am in USA. Just because last week and a week before that had been so hectic. Time flew like anything and today here I am siting up on my cozy king size bed taking a sip of coke while writing this post.

We had been planning to come here since a long time. We had to put some things in place in order to be here. Well its very different from what I had imagined.

I still remember me and AH talking about this long move, how things would be, the preparations, the life leaving behind and life starting differently. As much as I am happy, I am grateful for all those people who I am missing everyday. These people who make up for my family and friends are those who are the most special to me. And its true that when you leave your home, you love them even more! You cherish your relationships and value them and nurture them.

Wow! The effect on me 😃😃

I have many things to do here. I don’t want to be a lazy bum! That’s what comes easily to me if I don’t have much work to keep me occupied.

My US experience are going to teach me a lot just like I learned things growing up in India.

I want to live my life together with AH as a beautiful journey. This is just another step in growing up together.

Some things have already been checked out of my bucket list I made last year. And there’s lot more to knockoff.

I reached Seattle on 14th March and its been 10 days since then. Everything’s been so different! Ohh the jetlag was one disturbing feature. And its been horribly, alarmingly cold 😂

My woolens don’t work here, thank God AH is there to keep me warm😉

Besides this, the place where we live is absolute heaven. It is in woods and we enjoy the lovely morning walks in the trails. I enjoy checking out stores and now happy my refrigerator and kitchen are fully packed.

Cooking on electric cooktop was initially time consuming but I learnt how to do smart cooking. And still learning to be better.

Love the landscape, the cherry blossoms, the magnificent view of snow clad mountains whenever we ride on highways, the scenic beauty of country and the metropolis downtown area buzzing with malls, restaurants, sexy cars and high rise buildings.

Its so different when you watch an American show on TV or in movies. How I visualized its little different but in a good way.

People that I came across so far have been be friendly and nice. When I start working here, will get to know the corporate American life up and close.

And yeah, have to learn driving too, that’s what is bothering me the most. But one thing at a time Vanya, one thing at a time.

Till I write again. Love life and spread the love 😃😃😃😃😃

I am in USA!

Posted: March 22, 2014 in AH

Well well well here I am United States of America 😊

This is where a new phase has begun.

Lot to catch up on!


Friends forever :)

Posted: January 17, 2014 in AH

Just like there is no life without family, there is no life without friends.

Friendship is a beautiful bond that binds people together in love, trust, good times, bad times, moments when we need a shoulder to cry upon, seeking advice, keeping secrets and sometimes just listening to the voice of your friend uplifts your mood no matter how crappy your day went!

We all have our sets of friends. Ones we made in school, college, at work, through out our life we make friends.

Friendship is not based on anything material – money, power, influence. Those who say they have “friends for benefits”; are living a lie. True friends are for all seasons. Though often we have to keep up the appearances just for the sake of being on good terms. But one knows that even though we talk, share things, its not the same. Well this means that level of friendship differs among friends also.

I am lucky to have been blessed with many friends. Yes, on Facebook 🙂 In truth I have a circle of a few close knit friends. And we share a friendship of almost 25 years now 🙂 Nidhi and Chandni – my best friends forever.
With each of them i have so many amazing memories. We could not live in the same cities after 10th std. yet we were inseparable. in those days, internet boom had just started. Writing letters & chatting on phone was still popular. And once we moved in our lives, emails and chatting on messengers became a regular thing!

Letting each other know what’s happening, who’s who with old classmates, making plans of meeting soon, cancelling them and making them again..

And when we met it was just great!

Nidhi could not attend my wedding 😦 i really wish i could alter her situation. And she could be there with me!

But Chandni was with me. On my engagement day and wedding day both. I just needed her to be with me to cope up with all the rush:) and there she was! Even when i was in the beauty salon getting decked up as a bride. she was there patiently at me side. we had our own little “bachelorette” party 🙂 it was fun. And now she is married and off to Shanghai. i really wish her and Abhinav an amazing marriage life and may all their dreams come true. Strangely, the nick names of AH and Abhinav are same – Abhie 🙂 Chandni, you are a doll. She is a kid and at the same time mature as hell 🙂 a strange combination but there she is. She will give you the perfect advice. Be it her giggles or atttitude wala look, she is just fun to be around.

Nidhi, well what can i tell about her. She was my first friend. I remember our school days…what an awesome time we had. I feel that this generation in missing out on so many things. Friendship is not just hanging out with your buddies. it means keeping up the friendship overcoming the boundaries of distance and time. She has been my pillar through all times. I will always value that. I remember last year when i and AH attended her wedding, it was so beautiful to see her as a bride, blushing and smiling 🙂 She looked like a princess! at the time of her Vidai, i wonder how i held my tears back. Nidhi, you are a no a rare gem 🙂 For her and Ananad, I pray to God a lifetime of happiness and love.

And yes, i have another best friend. My husband, my sweetheart AH.
I still don’t know what happened between us in the first place – love or friendship 🙂 You probably don’t know this AH, but with you I have become a better human being. And we have an amazing amazing chemistry 🙂

I love you all and am grateful to Almighty that I have been blessed with these people in my life. Without them my life is a blank paper and all of them have added colors and made my life a RAINBOW 🙂

Hmm..this post should have come on Friendship day. Well ain’t it true – better late than never 🙂

Cheers to Friendship, and all BFFs!

Beautiful Lines

Posted: August 28, 2013 in AH

From one of the poems of Ramdhari Singh Dinkar –

रात यों कहने लगा मुझसे गगन का चाँद,

आदमी भी क्या अनोखा जीव है ।
उलझनें अपनी बनाकर आप ही फँसता,
और फिर बेचैन हो जगता, न सोता है ।

जानता है तू कि मैं कितना पुराना हूँ?
मैं चुका हूँ देख मनु को जनमते-मरते ।
और लाखों बार तुझ-से पागलों को भी
चाँदनी में बैठ स्वप्नों पर सही करते।

आदमी का स्वप्न? है वह बुलबुला जल का
आज उठता और कल फिर फूट जाता है ।
किन्तु, फिर भी धन्य ठहरा आदमी ही तो
बुलबुलों से खेलता, कविता बनाता है ।

मैं न बोला किन्तु मेरी रागिनी बोली,
देख फिर से चाँद! मुझको जानता है तू?
स्वप्न मेरे बुलबुले हैं? है यही पानी,
आग को भी क्या नहीं पहचानता है तू?

मैं न वह जो स्वप्न पर केवल सही करते,
आग में उसको गला लोहा बनाता हूँ ।
और उस पर नींव रखता हूँ नये घर की,
इस तरह दीवार फौलादी उठाता हूँ ।

मनु नहीं, मनु-पुत्र है यह सामने, जिसकी
कल्पना की जीभ में भी धार होती है ।
वाण ही होते विचारों के नहीं केवल,
स्वप्न के भी हाथ में तलवार होती है।

स्वर्ग के सम्राट को जाकर खबर कर दे
रोज ही आकाश चढ़ते जा रहे हैं वे ।
रोकिये, जैसे बने इन स्वप्नवालों को,
स्वर्ग की ही ओर बढ़ते आ रहे हैं वे।

When love is the answer!

Posted: February 19, 2013 in AH

Don Juan:There are only four questions of value in life, Don Octavio.

What is sacred? Of what is the spirit made? What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for?

The answer to each is the same: only love.


3 amazing years!

Posted: February 18, 2013 in AH, Love tickles :)

I and AH have a reason to celebrate.

Married for more than 2 years now.

We will complete 3 years of being engaged tomorrow. Partyyyy!!!

I realize today why its said that life is a dream. You see your dreams unfolding new things each day, building new dreams from the old ones…and the best part is you share them with some one you love.

I remember …the first “I love you” moment….and then the numerous ones, the promises (made on phone and in person :))

I remember..

The excitement on my engagement day – 19th Feb. 2010,  the longing to see each other (silly how we had shopped together for rings a day before!), the expressions in our eyes, the feeling of holding hands and putting the rings,

how it felt to pose for the first time as a couple in front of so many people,  

I remember…

the day we changed our relationship status on FB, the time we wrote love notes (more from me :)), the stupid pranks, playing hide and seek, hiding TV remote, telling you the climax of the movie right before it starts 🙂 not letting you sleep, mocking at each other, etc. etc.

the first “cheers” together, the first “under the waterfall” moment

I will not forget the time how we fought and made up again 🙂

I will always love you AH 🙂

Yeah all of this and that. Pretty much simple and sweet..Who would have thought I would have written this post 3 Years Back! All is written in the stars and we are destined for our share of happiness sooner or later.

To all the readers…keep loving your loved ones and never stop dreaming 🙂