Fears and getting over them

Posted: January 9, 2015 in AH

Overcoming fear.

What is the biggest fear of man? Death probably. It’s an unknown territory. We don’t know what happens after we die. Is there actually a hell for all sinners and a heaven for pure souls. I have read in books and often heard elders speak that if we do good deeds in our lifetime, chances are we will get an entry ticket to heaven. Even sinners who repent for their evil and perform good actions may be spared from hell in the end.

But that’s all vague. The truth is our actions determine our life, how we live and what kind of memories we are leaving behind. Death is the ultimate reality. We can’t choose the format for it. It will happen no matter what. And I am not in any depressed state of mind or gloomy while writing this.

I am just feeling calm. But its the thought of losing our loved ones and not able to do this and that part which scares me a lot.

I am also scared of darkness. When I enter a dark room, I always or most of the time feel that there is someone behind me. That someone is going to hit me.

Now I have to overcome that fear. Its too much ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

First thing, why will someone want to hit me? Or even attack me? Ghosts and scary pictures or snapshots of horror movies in our mind haunt us. Torment us from childhood. So, to avoid them, either call out God’s name and definitely you will be saved. Believe in this. Or make yourself brave enough to look behind and sigh.

Besides these, I am not scared of anything major. Well there are other things also like what if I try out sky diving and something happens to me during fall..or am driving a car and something happens to me..see, actually there is a pattern I can observe. Afraid of getting physically hurt.

Solution – Just little more confidence and little more faith in the Almighty will do good ๐Ÿ˜ƒ


On advice

Posted: January 9, 2015 in AH

Over the years I have given advice to many friends and family members. I am a people’s person and I am a good listener too. I think when my friends talk to me they value my opinion. My views matter in general not because I am their friend but I carry some sort of positivity ๐Ÿ˜ƒ looks like I am bragging myself but I know I am patient when it comes to listening and understanding others’ woes or doubts.

At times when life offers you choices between x and y and you are confused to choose from either of them, you look out for a third perspective. A ray of hope which can show some clarity and direction.

I have advised my friends in their troubles, paved the way towards the “z”. They have been happy and satisfied. But in the end they have to work out their problems themselves.

But when it comes to me, I hardly take advice from anyone. I may have too much of an ego! Like asking someone or disclosing the nature of my problem will undermine my personality. As much as I like helping people, sorting their issues I refrain from opening up my side of life. I go on and on about the new things I do, exciting things happening around me but if something is bothering me, I keep it to myself and don’t share with my best friend also. Strange isn’t it?

I am secretive when it comes to me. But if I feel something is going wrong with my friend, I dig deep into his/her mind through indirect questions justย to know the truth behind it. It’s like some sort of a task to help them out. And until it is resolved I leave no stone unturned to keep my friend hopeful and happy.

I can definitely work in the role of a consultant. You know as an alternate career choice. ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

Happy new year to all ๐Ÿ™‚

happy new year 2015

I wish 2015 brings happiness and joy to my family, friends and may there be peace everywhere. Peace part sounds very skeptical but often true wishes come true. Amen.

New year has come so soon. It was like yesterday when we started packing and moved to USA. It’s already 9 months now. How quick the time flies.

Lastย year started withย a good note and whoย knew that towards the end it will bring along with it great tragedy in family. My dearest Azoba, my loving grandpa and mama are with God now. May their soul rest in peace in heaven. May their blessings and happy memories remind us of their love for all.

I miss my Azoba so much. Whatever I am today is because of him. Everything.

Anyway, it’s time to be hopeful, to be positive and looking forward ahead. Azoba always told me to keep head high, believe in God and yourself. Work hard, success will definitely come. Oh, how I miss the voice of my grandparents. Even that I know I can’t go back but I so much wish to go back in time and tell them how grateful I am and shall always be. To say “thank you” for all the love, support and caring. For raising me. For everything.

Let the new year make each of us more humble. More considerate towards others. May at least I try to be respectful to others’ feelings.

Resolutions for new year? Just to be true to myself and my family and friends. Keep myself more grounded. Avoiding feeling of jealousy, cribbing for things not required. Looks like going on that once in a while philosophical path again. But it’s true.

Wishing and actuallyย doing something are two different things. I don’t know what’s in store forย 2015 but I am hopeful for good things to happen soon ๐Ÿ™‚

And lastly, to keep good health.

Welcome 2015.

Turning 30 :) Happy Birthday to me

Posted: September 13, 2014 in AH

It’s my birthday is tomorrow ๐Ÿ™‚

And its weird as I won’t be 20 something now…anyway, I am growing older and its that time of the day when I really want to thank all my family n friends n especially God…for blessing me with this life and letting me have all wonderful experiences.

May I continue to bring a smile on the faces of my loved ones. May I do the right things in life. May I never hurt anyone.

Yes I wish for beautiful dresses and great food. But tomorrow, asย I turn 30, I wish to be little more sensible and a little more cute ๐Ÿ™‚

Thanks everyone who read my blog!

The Rain Effect

Posted: July 24, 2014 in AH, Fun, Slice of Life


What makes you happy? A good sleep, good food, lavish life, great job…money??? there can be unlimited answers to this. if someone asked me this question 5 months ago, my answer would be simple : Rains. Rains make me happy!

Things change. Picture this. This place never ceases to amaze me. For someone who has always lived in hot, dry state, this place is a sudden change. For the last 5 months, rains have been a part of my daily life on weekly basis.

earlier rains used to bring joy, happiness, smiles and going out and getting wet, dancing under the sky. rains meant a cup of hot tea, onion fries and vada pavs. rains compelled me to dial up my friends and make them envy with sounds of rain drops on the window panes. And at times, on those foggy window panes, you write words with your finger tips. Often I have made heart symbol and initials of mine and AH. I still do this ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

rains have their own magic. how intoxicating that fragrance is when rain drops touch the earth and blend with the mud.

rains have their own beauty. Somewhere from far you hear a cuckoo singing. Somewhere very far a peacock must have danced. Somewhere an empty pond would have filled and quenched the thirst of a cow. Somewhere you hope a mazdoor or a laborer digging ground at construction site is kissed by rain.Rain drops would have taken his sweat away along with them.
You see beautiful umbrellas and colorful raincoats, kids splashing water and jumping on the rain, those little paper boats finding their way on sloppy roads. Despite all the chaos on roads, the traffic and potholes on roads and no electricity; rains are just beautiful.

rains have their own charm. yes I remember picking up my favorite book and reading it. or listening to my favorite songs taking me back to some happy memories. or wearing that special shawl because the air just cooler and you want some warmth.

and as I write this blog today, I am watching outside my window. I can see its raining. the sky is so grey as if someone has just painted heavy strokes of black on canvas and added a dash of white. whatever color comes up with this combination, that’s the grey shade am referring to! and yes from grey I remember seeing the trailer of this new movie 50 shades of grey. I don’t know the movie’s fate yet until it releases. the novel was not good so its adaptation on screen will be I don’t know..bad!

anyway, coming back to rains now. Rains now make me gloomy and suppress my excitement. it rains so much here that I crave for a sunny day. yes I crave for a sunny day.

it’s not that bad considering that in a few days this too shall pass but the sight of incessant rains at times is unbearable.

our moods reflect our personality. I know I crib a lot about many things and rains were definitely never one of those things until now. so I feel sad that my favorite season is becoming my least favorite season now.

but on the up side, too much rains means new boots, new jackets. that’s the bright side of an otherwise rainy day ๐Ÿ˜‰

New novel on my shelf!

Posted: May 2, 2014 in Fun

Ohh I am reading this amazing book these days…


I remember a few days back I had started a project for myself. I/Knowledge. Here’s an update. I did very little about it. Yes I thought that I will utilize my time dwelling deep into all those heavy topics but now when I look back, I see that I haven’t contributed anything to it ๐Ÿ˜ข
See this is my problem..how I start anything new with full enthusiasm and chirpiness but when it comes to execute it, I just sit back and go zzzzzz. So, I am not doing any major stuff. Besides my daily work, I have whole day to myself. Then why spend too much of my time watching online movies and tv shows.
Ohh I need to come out of my lazy shell ๐Ÿ˜ƒ
There is so much to read and so much to know.

I have to bring discipline into my little project now. Yes. I am on to it now. Religiously. No matter what, I will finish this soon.

There has been too much of cooking, tv, wasting time. Now I have to finish what I started a few months back.

It’s going to be fun…just like I imagined. ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

Its still hard to believe that I am in USA. Just because last week and a week before that had been so hectic. Time flew like anything and today here I am siting up on my cozy king size bed taking a sip of coke while writing this post.

We had been planning to come here since a long time. We had to put some things in place in order to be here. Well its very different from what I had imagined.

I still remember me and AH talking about this long move, how things would be, the preparations, the life leaving behind and life starting differently. As much as I am happy, I am grateful for all those people who I am missing everyday. These people who make up for my family and friends are those who are the most special to me. And its true that when you leave your home, you love them even more! You cherish your relationships and value them and nurture them.

Wow! The effect on me ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

I have many things to do here. I don’t want to be a lazy bum! That’s what comes easily to me if I don’t have much work to keep me occupied.

My US experience are going to teach me a lot just like I learned things growing up in India.

I want to live my life together with AH as a beautiful journey. This is just another step in growing up together.

Some things have already been checked out of my bucket list I made last year. And there’s lot more to knockoff.

I reached Seattle on 14th March and its been 10 days since then. Everything’s been so different! Ohh the jetlag was one disturbing feature. And its been horribly, alarmingly cold ๐Ÿ˜‚

My woolens don’t work here, thank God AH is there to keep me warm๐Ÿ˜‰

Besides this, the place where we live is absolute heaven. It is in woods and we enjoy the lovely morning walks in the trails. I enjoy checking out stores and now happy my refrigerator and kitchen are fully packed.

Cooking on electric cooktop was initially time consuming but I learnt how to do smart cooking. And still learning to be better.

Love the landscape, the cherry blossoms, the magnificent view of snow clad mountains whenever we ride on highways, the scenic beauty of country and the metropolis downtown area buzzing with malls, restaurants, sexy cars and high rise buildings.

Its so different when you watch an American show on TV or in movies. How I visualized its little different but in a good way.

People that I came across so far have been be friendly and nice. When I start working here, will get to know the corporate American life up and close.

And yeah, have to learn driving too, that’s what is bothering me the most. But one thing at a time Vanya, one thing at a time.

Till I write again. Love life and spread the love ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

Aside  —  Posted: March 24, 2014 in AH, Family, Slice of Life

I am in USA!

Posted: March 22, 2014 in AH

Well well well here I am ..in United States of America ๐Ÿ˜Š

This is where a new phase has begun.

Lot to catch up on!


Day 1: History of the world

Posted: January 28, 2014 in I/Knowledge

Date – 28th January 2013

Topic selected – History of the world

Started my research….just now.